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Post by Kakita Mitsouko on Feb 7, 2012 7:50:50 GMT -5
Mitsouko blinked at his reaction, and didn’t even resisted the urge of bringing her fists together in a concerned gesture, close to her mouth, observing Battou’s laugh and crazy words. Maybe not crazy, but utterly sincere and…completely inadequate to any patterns. He was a refined and experienced Crane, so she waited a simple ‘thank you’, maybe a smile. Battou’s reaction was shocking, was… something that made the Kakita daimyo speechless.
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Post by Zeure on Feb 7, 2012 7:52:12 GMT -5
His head came back down to face her and his eyes were glittering from the prospects of finally having attained the person of his affection. The person that he had been pursuing for three years. Who had shaped everything that he had done; as he was doing it all to become what he thought she desired. Battou looked across at her, but it seemed like he was not just looking at her physical form, but trying to see something deeper.
"Kami, from the very first moment I saw you I've known that there was something special between us. I've, ahhh, I've seen so many other women and they've never sparked anything like what I've felt with you. There has been a lust or...well...something like that where they desired me and I desired them, but it was fleeting. But it's never been the same as what I have felt for you."
He looked at her and she had remained speechless, she looked shocked. Battou's eyes narrowed slightly in the manner of concern.
"Haven't you felt it too? Tell me that your mind has wandered to me just as mine has to you. We spent more than a year apart before we met again at Winter Court. Tell me, how many times did your mind wander to me without any reason to do so?"
He had moved forward on the cushion towards her. He had gingerly reached a hand forward across the ground bracing himself. He wasn't quite within arms reach yet, but definitely closer than he had been a moment ago.
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Post by Kakita Mitsouko on Feb 7, 2012 7:53:52 GMT -5
What's wrong with all the Kakita? she thought, trying to resist her instinct of turning her face from him and his embarrassing question.
"I've been having... hard days, Battou-san. I've been... Well, I was engaged the first time we met. My focus was in that at the time. Sorry, I didn't... I..." Stuttering wouldn't make no good at this situation she knew, but lies were inexcusable at her current mindset.
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Post by Zeure on Feb 7, 2012 7:54:08 GMT -5
"Oh, well.... no doubt you have been distracted..."
He thought back to his meeting with Kimo, that time when his devotion to Mitsouko was truly tested. When he had to slay the man that she was engaged to in order to keep them separated. Kimo had never been worthy of her anyways. And surely if he could not defend himself from Battou then Battou had been the one that was truly worthy of her.
Yes, poor Kimo, he thought.
"Ah, but surely you have... thought of me? Why did you suddenly decide to make me your husband if not that?"
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Post by Kakita Mitsouko on Feb 7, 2012 7:55:46 GMT -5
"Battou…" and now that. Weird questionings sprouting from his mouth and now it would make everything looks like… "Battou I don’t intend to hide from you that I need to marry… in the next month. I am pregnant." She held her breath, letting her hands fall again.
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Post by Zeure on Feb 7, 2012 7:57:47 GMT -5
"Oh... you... you're pregnant. I see..."
So, she needs to use me... he thought. This has nothing to do with...us. This has everything to do with her needing an alibi. And I'm... I couldn't be more perfect for it. He was...hurt. Not because of her condition, but because this of all things is what caused her to come to him. He was just one more favor arranged in her game.
"Ah, well... I suppose that I am very well matched to... that... purpose. Just go ahead and send the nakado to my parents, you will find them most amiable."
There was a tightness around is eyes, something that she could not quite place, but he masked it with that fake smile that he often wore. She had only seen it once before, but she knew it was not genuine. He turned to the side and coughed.
"You'll forgive me... I'm suddenly not feeling well. I... I think shall have to take my leave, I believe."
How could he have been so foolish. Everything that he had done to this point had no meaning. He still was not the man that she wanted, he was simply the convenient excuse. No one would question her suddenly being married and then giving birth less than nine months away. They would all think that he had gotten to her. When in fact, very close to that nine month period beginning she had flatly rejected him.
He stood and bowed to her and then he took a few steps away from her. He was suddenly dizzy from all the emotion and from having stood up too soon. His left arm gripped the door way and his right went to his head, trying to wipe the single tear that had already sprung up. She doesn't care for me at all. Not one bit. To her eyes, it looked as though he had suddenly stumbled.
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Post by Kakita Mitsouko on Feb 7, 2012 8:00:01 GMT -5
By the seven kami, it cannot be true! his dramatic reaction had been even worse than his weird and kind of nonsense words, and now his blatant suffering was clutching her heart as claws.
“Battou-san... Please! Are you feeling well?”
Just a stupid question, she always thought it was only his unabashed flirty style and now, the man was having a fit on her door. She was truly concerned with Battou's physical reaction to it, even if she was astonished to the realization she never took him seriously before. Though it must wait for further analysis later.
She rose and went to the duelist. "Please, Battou-san you are not well. You are going anywhere." Turning to her loyal servant, who was waiting in the corridor: "Mimi, call the physician please."
The Kakita daimyo didn't mind in touching him, then conducting Battou to the pillows again. She wouldn’t allow him to leave her house this way.
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Post by Zeure on Feb 7, 2012 8:00:21 GMT -5
He kept his face downward and slightly turned away from her, and he allowed himself to be led back to the cushions that he had just recently occupied.
"I... I just don't know what came over me, maybe I stood too fast."
He was trying to pull himself back together, trying to find his center and grasp it, but... she was his center and had been for some time. He knew it. But she didn't... it was crushing him. He had never considered the possibility that she would not feel the same way for him that he felt for her. That she wouldn't have that same 'thing' inside of her that pointed at him like he had for her. In his mind he had just always known that it was her.
Another single tear moved down his cheek, he moved his sleeve quickly to try and get rid of the offending reaction, and he prayed that she had not seen it. But she was concentrating on him, how could she not have? Rapid thoughts descended on him: Kami, I'm losing it... I'm only 'useful' to her... How could I have not known, why should I think otherwise? Why would she.... why would she want...this?
He was taking several deep breaths to try and steady himself. To bring himself back to the social positioning that was expected of him. To regain his calm. They were measured and controlled breaths, not something that could be mistaken for detrimental.
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Post by Kakita Mitsouko on Feb 7, 2012 8:02:05 GMT -5
She noticed the tear and used her thumb to sweep it from his face, she wasn’t indifferent to his suffering, it has a strong effect on her as well. Her eyes watered sharing his awkward moment as something that had started weird, passed through pathetic and now was going to tragic. Everything was falling apart.
"Please Battou, I am… so sorry, I just… am a monster."
Before she could tell or do anything else her physician arrived and started to examine the Kakita Artisan. Mitsouko left the room and waited in the corridor, anxious, her heart aching in blame and shame for being so stupid. The specialist soon came and told the Kakita daimyo the duelist just needed some rest. Mitsouko returned to the room, kneeled at his side:
"Battou-san I will not let you go anywhere tonight. I am concerned so you will rest in my house. I… I am just confused about what happened here tonight but… I wish to talk to you; continue our conversation. Now, please take some rest as the physician just recommended. He said me you ate a bit too fast and just need to let your body properly digest the meal… I am a bit insomniac so, in the case you awake in the night and wish to talk to me, ask a servant to call me. "She waved in the corridor's direction, mentioning she would be near.
"Do you agree we need to talk?"
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Post by Zeure on Feb 7, 2012 8:06:32 GMT -5
Having recuperated some of his faculties, Battou was responsive, but exhausted. He was not sure why he felt so tired, but the physician's recommendation sounded like a miracle cure to him.
"Sure... I'll stay in your guest chambers..."
He didn't bother to smile or make any indication of how this situation fitted him. He was expressionliess and listless. His head was drooping, maybe sleep would cure him.
"We can talk whenever you want, Mitsouko....sama."
He moved forwards towards the chambers that she was indicating, it was a slow sort of walk, like a man defeated moving back home.
"I... I don't want to bore you with my childish fantasies any more though... so... I'm sure I don't know why I thought what I thought..."
He looked up at her, and without meaning to their eyes locked and held each other for a moment. And without realizing the depth that it would cut her, or whether or not she would understand the meaning of the statement he spoke one final thing before he was put to bed.
"I should have known."
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Post by Kakita Mitsouko on Feb 7, 2012 8:09:07 GMT -5
Mitsouko said nothing, because nothing occurred in her mind. She wasn't cruel and that was so unexpected. The clever, bold, savoir-vivant Kakita Battou exposing his heart in such way because her stupid way of doing things... "I expressed my intentions, he expressed his intentions... and we did a big mess! Such loss of face!" That's why nakado do exist. To not let those things to happen. " Mitsouko rolled in her futon for the hundredth time, not able to close her eyes, thinking in every word Battou had said. In his tears. In how she misjudged his feelings as something merely lust related.
Maybe he was as awaken as her, maybe he was trying to understand why she was so unworthy of his feelings. Mitsouko felt she needed to talk to him, now; because the dawn would turn everything indelible.
Moments after, Battou noticed a silhouette coming to the door, knocking slightly at the shogi pannel. It was Mitsouko.
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Post by Zeure on Feb 7, 2012 8:09:30 GMT -5
There was no movement in the room, and the lights were out as she approached, but after she had only knocked once, he spoke: "Yes, I am awake and you, of course, can enter, Mitsouko-sama."
Battou was laying down on the futon that was prepared for him. He was shirtless, but still wearing his hakama. His arms were folded and tucked under his head forming a cradle and he had one foot propped up on the opposite knee. He was staring at the ceiling, as he had been for many hours. Just thinking of the events of tonight, all the things that he had thought for so long; all of it, just mixed all together. He didn't move from his position as she slid the screen to the side and entered.
"Please, have a seat if you wish. I have not been able to sleep at all, my mind is just restless. How about you?"
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Post by Kakita Mitsouko on Feb 7, 2012 8:10:51 GMT -5
She slid the door shut behind her. The Kakita daimyo was in one of her plain simple kimono, now looking more as herself.
"It was not my intention to offend you Battou-san… Your reaction wasn’t exactly what I expected but…now it’s pretty clear how little we know each other. I…" even trying not to do it, she couldn’t help but scan his body, and there was the realization he was a very handsome man. In every aspect.
So she knelt by his side.
“Forgive me for being so self-centered and selfish.” She said simply, sincerity in all her gestures. She bowed her head low.
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Post by Zeure on Feb 7, 2012 8:11:09 GMT -5
He turned his head to look at her. This was a side of Mitsouko that he had never seen before. She was being regretful, he was confused by this. He rolled up from his laying position and turned to where he was facing her from on top of the futon. He continued his gaze trying to work her out.
"I'm... I'm not offended by you, Mitsouko.....saaa." *he shook his head* "Mitsouko. We are going to be married, ne?" *he laughed a small, forced bit* "I guess it's better if I get personal with you. And you the same with me.""
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Post by Kakita Mitsouko on Feb 7, 2012 8:11:58 GMT -5
She was raising her head, when he shuffled everything again. She stopped for a moment, trying to realize if they were at least talking the same language.
“I… Sorry but… Battou-san, After what you exposed, after what I…exposed I, don’t think it’s a god idea.”
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